Terminal 00
I should have known. I should have known. I should
have known.
Of course it wouldn’t have changed anything. Asking it for help… It was just a part of the sky, it couldn’t do anything. I should have known that my prayers were for naught. Nothing I could do would have
helped. The tears were wasted. I was abandoned,
and the moon could not change that fact.
Ah, and even now, when there are others in need, I
can’t help them either. There’s nothing I can do. None of the words help. Even with suffering shared
between us, despite all of the years I’ve learned
from, no matter what I do… they are lost.
And failing in that, even when deciding not to
waste myself for a conflict that could not be won…
Ah, it hurts. Reflecting on these failings,
settling down in the muck of these regrets…
I can feel it.
I hate it. This pain. I should have done more. There was time to do something, to try even more than
I had, to surpass what was possible. If only the
limits could be broken, if only…
If only I had known.
I should have known.
I should have known.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
No one can be saved. It’s all for nothing. There’s
nothing left here. I regret realizing this world
in full. It was the only option for someone like
me, but it was the worst one. Continuing, there’s no other option… I have to suffer. I have to struggle
till I die, mucked in my regrets.
Ah…
This is all dream.
And one day, I’m going to wake up.